R.I.P

Well today has been a long and stressful and tear filled day, because my dear viejo has passed away at the wonderful age of 92.

I was in complete shock when i got the fateful text message from Karla that he had passed, i immedietly left work and went home to meet my grandmother and karla and my other aunt elisa and her husband abner, it was the quitest i have ever heard my house.

Well everyone comes over to my house and it is just hugs kisses and tears and talking very low and quiet, but as my tio geno kept putting it we have to celebrate the good things in his life and to not remence on the bad. Well we all are going to new york to say our proper goodbye, and to wish him a safe trip to the spot that he has earned in heaven cause he worked hard and never quit.

R.I.P Juan De Jesus
July 22,2006

Try to make peace Come more RAGE AND ANGER!

Wow when you try to put your own ego aside cause you want to solve a problem, and the other side of the equation is not willing too it is hard. And it is really hard when 5 people have to put their ego's aside, espcially under the circumstances. That my viejito is dying and this ass hole dose not want to resolve this is stupid cause he is not "WRONG" yeah he is wrong we could have drug this out much longer but we were goin to end this.

So today i am at work enjoying my day. When i recive a phone call from my friend B he tells me that a friend of mine has talked to Bitch Boy, and that he felt that he had done nothing wrong and that we had disrespected him and his wife. No time have we ever disrespected them infront of the family but we have in between us 5 but that is as far as it would go. So i really dont understand how we disrespected him when they were the ones to start putting peoples buisness out in public. Well that is my rant and rave for the day.

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Its Goin Down!!

For some reason i really like that song but as it says its is goin down this has to end. All of it has to end for all of our emotional and mental well being it has to end. And it will. Im too tired from what has happened today to even know what to think or to write. It is all to much its all comeing apart. ARRRRGGGHHHH, and the only thing that is saving xavier from me goin to his house and beating the living shit out of him is out of respect for mama and papa other than that its all over and nothing can save him. All i feel right know anger so i am goin to bed.

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Pandoras BOX

Well everyone knows the story so I wont go over it. But a certain person but one of my cousin's personal situations out their and this said person is already on none speaking or hanging out with terms and it is funny how he thinks he has a lot of dirt on us but he doesn't. LOL it makes me smile and evil little smile. But since he wants to go spreading other peoples business out their he will have to feel the rath of his and his wives pandoras box cause we have more on them than they have on us. So I guess this has escalated but we all felt that something was going to happen with this situation to make it worse. And poof their it is, I really hate it when those feelings are right. Well I always seem to find some time at nite to post know, good nite and good luck.

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Communication

Wow what a week it has been I have been working for 9 days straight and I have Friday Saturday off WOOT.

But during this crazy week I have learned some new things.... From my aunt jacinta who had some good stories to tell about the good ol' days. Then we had a nice conversation in the conoco parking lot were I learned and figured some stuff out and understood why some people did certain things and I was not trying to pick on this person I was just trying to see why they reacted in such a way. And after our conversation it all made sense cause we had Communication and I understood why and for what reason it happened, and I am sorry to the people that were around me that nite I had a lot of things about work that I know don't invole any of you and am sorry I couldn't discuss and was really tired so I didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings cause I care about all of you. So I can just hope that this awkwardness know between us can go away and we can be ONE. So I am off to bed cause I have to be at work sooon for my last day before two days off. Much love to the people I love and would never want to hurt cause they mean so much to me.

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