critical mass

In life you think you know how something is going to go and then all
of a sudden you get fucking slapped in the face and gotta grit your
teeth and take it like a man but sometimes you just gotta pull back
and let loose, cause sometimes people need to hear it.

They need to hear it so that there protective bubble is just that a
bubble that can burst at any moment it's fragil and delicate and will
pop when any pressure is applied and they either form and bounce off
or they subcome to the force and pop and give up.

That moment is a pivotal point in a persons life when you finally get
the choice to choose who is on and who's out of your life (pop there
bubble) or decide who stays (forming and bouncing) I think I have
reached the point in my like were I have come to terms in my life it's
time to get rid of the dead weight.

So to people who I haven't talked to in a while it's for a reason! And
I realized is that I really could care fucking less what the hell
people think of me I'm going to be the real me and stop sugar coating
shit and if that leaves me with no friends then were we truly friends?

Since it seems I'm always the person that seems to supply with the
support and time and break my neck to help people out an really don't
get jack shit back, time that shit comes to a end and start looking
out for me.

There are certain people that I will still look out for, and will
always look out for no matter what an they know this but some people
think there in the circle but I'm just being nice to not upset other
peoples relailtionships but there will come a day for those people
when they will realize what side they stand and they maybe shocked.
But oh well my fault you suck at knowing who's playing you like a fool.

Its been a long time....

Oh wow its been almost an year since my last post and a lot in my life has changed let's get reaquanted.

Ok well to begin with I got a new job after my last blog now I'm at a mortgage servicing company...its a good job it pays the bills. Well after that I kinda stayed stagnent for a while.

Until about febuary of this year I decided I needed to move out from my grand parents. Don't get me wrong I love my grandpa and grandma they are great and they have been supportive in what ever I have ever wanted to do they basiclly shaped me as a person...but so did other people...I decided to move in with my cousions joe and nat. And it has been a new experience every couple of day. I've found out a lot about myself and what I can do as a person. Its been an amazing experiance.

Well then I turned the big 21 which in and of itself was an awsome experiance, which like most everyone else I got completly hammered and can't remember much from that whole week. But then after that everything has been very blah the norm not really doing much just work,home,sleep and repeat except for the occasions when I will go out to a bar/club.

Then one day while sitting in my cube at work(just as I'm doing now) it hit me I need to get out of colorado. I need to move I've just been here spinning my wheels not doing much productive. So I decided to go back to my birthplace NYC. Its gonna be an awsome new experiance, and I have already found a school that I am very interested in attending for my sport managment. And it has come to me as a surprise on how much support my family has given me for the move.

So roughly around this time next year me and my compi(joe) will be on the road to nyc.

Well I think that's enough for today(gotta get back to work) and I will make it a habbit to post more often a lot shorter I gaurentee.