Dead Weight

Wow this has been a crazy week for me cause so much stuff has been going on that it feels weird to get some of this DEAD WEIGHT off me cause it was only holding me back, but I will say that it hurt to let go of this DEAD WEIGHT cause it was close to me and I trusted and believed in it but it let me down in the end, choosing a ..... Over family really hurts and it hurts that everyone that came out here saw that some people have changed for the worst. And if anyone knows me I don't like to sulk in things for too long I just get over it and go in life but this really keeps me coming back..... Which I guess is why it hurts so Bad, but sides have been chosen and when it is all said and done the damage that this has cause can not be taken back no matter what this person says or dose but when ...... Leaves him none of his friends or family will be their when he comes for support it will not be their because sides have been chosen and that is how it is meant to be. It really sucks that our family has to go through this shit cause we are so tight.

It really hurt me to have to put up a fake face in-front of the family that was here for my aunt Jacintas 60th b-day because it was suppose to be a joyful time were all the family would get together and enjoy the short time that we have together because who knows when we will be all back together....And to enjoy each other company's, but their had to be drama surrounding the good time and it hurt......To have to put on a front that I was not feeling cause that was not me and I just wanted to scream what I had to say but I guess not cause I know that this was all meant to be and that "Karma is a Bitch" and it will come right back at you when your world starts to crumble you don't know were to look or to go that's when you have hit rock bottom and have nobody left to turn too.....But it was fun to get to hang out with all my cousin's at one time that I hadn't seen forever.... And it was fun having cousin bonding time at Abner and Elisa house I found out some stuff about my cousin's I didn't know. All in all this week was really weird cause it was filled with so much emotion and hate towards one individual that it was crazy good thing the family didn't see the behind the scene action and I am happy about that because it would have ruined a great time over some stupid shit.

So It feels good to get rid of some DEAD WEIGHT and I hope he never ever contacts me again cause the time for reconciliation is over and know it is time to stand behind what you said even if it was in anger or rage those words should never be said to your family members ever because it doesn't take to long to say them but they will never be forgotten......I'm sorry about the post being so down and in the gutter but I need to get this off my chest and it will clear the air for some confusion if you can put it all together cause it is a big puzzle.

Having true cousions you can trust is the best thing in the world.